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“This absolutely blew me away. For boy band fans, for those who’ve memorized the lyrics to every Camp Rock song, or for anyone who knows how hard, complex, and beautiful it is to come out as queer whether you’re famous or not — this is our book.”
— Miriasha Borsykowsky, Phoenix Books Burlington, Burlington, VT
A NATIONAL AND INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER
Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich's “If This Gets Out is an absolute showstopper! Equal parts edgy and adorable, this bright, joyful book has everything I look for in a queer YA romance.” —Phil Stamper, bestselling author of The Gravity of Us
You’re in the most popular boy band in America…and all you want is the boy singing next to you.
Eighteen-year-olds Ruben Montez and Zach Knight are two members of the boy-band Saturday, one of the biggest acts in America. Along with their bandmates, Angel Phan and Jon Braxton, the four are teen heartthrobs in front of the cameras and best friends backstage.
But privately, the pressure to stay in the closet has Ruben confiding in Zach.
On a whirlwind tour through Europe with an unrelenting schedule and minimal supervision, the two come to rely on each other more and more, and their already close friendship evolves into a romance. But when they decide they’re ready to tell their fans and live freely, Zach and Ruben realize they will never truly have the support they need.
How can they hold tight to each other when their whole world is coming apart?
“If This Gets Out is an absolute showstopper! Equal parts edgy and adorable, this bright, joyful book has everything I look for in a queer YA romance—Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich tell this story in perfect harmony.” —Phil Stamper, bestselling author of The Gravity of Us and As Far as You’ll Take Me
“If This Gets Out is the perfect book.... It deftly explores the dark side of fame [and] the giddy thrill of first—and forbidden—love.” —Mackenzi Lee, New York Times–bestselling author
"[A] sweet and swoon-worthy romance. Zach and Ruben are a pitch-perfect duet!" —Caleb Roehrig, author of Last Seen Leaving
"Dazzle[s]...with a narrative of queer boy-bandmates who wrestle with newfound fame, and newfound feelings for each other. Readers will fall in love." —Adam Sass, author of Surrender Your Sons
"If This Gets Out blends the ache and the beauty of coming out under the lights of celebrity with the ways in which queer love is told to stay hidden, even when it's the only thing keeping the music going." —L.C. Rosen, author of Camp and Jack of Hearts (and Other Parts)
“If This Gets Out will suck you in from Page 1...[and] stick with you beyond the finale.” —Associated Press
“Fun, heartwarming, and a vital purchase for all collections serving teens.” —School Library Journal (starred review)
“This unexpectedly poignant love story… subverts expectations in refreshing ways…. A lively novel with as much appeal as the band itself.” —Kirkus
"Dietrich and Gonzales keep the tension high and Ruben and Zach's voices distinct in this friends-to-lovers romance that shines with passion and verve." —Booklist
“Riveting...If This Gets Out is the perfect read for anyone who loves music, friends-to-lovers romances or ever secretly shipped members of a band!” —Nerd Daily